I had a kink filter on my LJ, but the only people on it don't seem to actually use LJ anymore, and its been months since I've made a post, anyway, so I'm keeping this public. Just in case there's anyone out there still reading ( Read more... )

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2011/06/why-being-broken-in-a-pile-on-your-bedroom-floor-is-a-good-idea--julie-jc-peters/Read more... )

I have a few thoughts that I want to get down here on LJ, but I'm having a greater-than-usual degree of difficulty ignoring the fourth wall. It is really important to me that I don't write on LJ as if I am writing TO someone specific, and so I become doubly paralyzed: all too aware of who might read this, unwilling to write things not yet said to ( Read more... )

My impulse is to pull out documents, and reference notes, to include URLS and timestamps. But then I realize that this is all part of the thing that I do to avoid feeling, to avoid BEING a rope fetishist ( Read more... )

This strange interaction between Porphyria and I continues. I am never quite sure what is permissible, what is encouraged, and what is to be avoided. All the more difficult because Porphyria seems to shy away from direct questions, and the only thing I've learned to be certain of during her last visits is that if I ask directly, the answer becomes ( Read more... )

There is dust on the bottom shelf of my bookcase
A gray fog building over the journals of my youth
I cannot bend low enough to sweep it away
For my back is stiff with pride and old injuries

( rambling incoherence )

ShibariCon this year was completely awesome on a number of levels. It's really amazing to think about what my life was like last year when I went, versus this year. In terms of social life, steps towards my career dreams, and actual skill with rope....I have grown so much, it's astounding ( Read more... )

I get this strange sense of constriction, a kind of hesitancy that comes from remembering that people actually read this silly blog. A few days ago, I was in an IM conversation with todfox and he referenced something I'd written here. It was startling, to be reminded that someone is actually reading these things ( Read more... )

Okay, Amul. So you said that you didn't actually go to very many rope classes at ShibariCon, and you didn't have any sex while you were there, so what the hell was the point of going?

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Rule 1: Do not email anyone who visits your website saying, "Hey, I saw you were on my site and looking at X," no matter how much you believe it may be the hot girl from the fetish convention you just got back from ( Read more... )